As friends of mine know, every sunday I am an early riser. I am up before the sun is up to be in church. Yes.... Its been going on for years.
And also for years there is chap who has been going to church i believe for as long as I have. But long ago, my family used to seat at the front pews. Like the first few 5 or so. But since the new priest came along couple of years back, we have had to move back to the second sections of the pew. Coz this priest uses alot of incense throughout mass and my nose can't take it. I feel suffocated.
So since the last few years, I finally began to notice this chap. I believe he is eurasian. So i was hoping that one day I would have a chance to cross path. Years went by, prayers went unheard. Then for the last 6 months I haven't seen him in church anymore. Until today.
During his absence of the 6 months, his sister has given birth. and today there is baptism for babies. Maybe thats why he came. He did came to mass but alas! with a beautiful chinese girl in tow :)
I don't know this person but only seen from afar but yet I have this tinge of disappointment in my heart. Maybe its more of a feeling of dissipated hope.
Its not easy anticipating the next birthday which is very soon on the way. Not very easy to accept the fact that one is turning older and yet nothing in sight. Years of prayers that doesn't seemed answered. Maybe like they say, every prayer is answered and maybe the answer is a No.
How does one as a Christian , decides to do? Go on praying? give you praying? Still hold hope that God hasn't forsaken one?
Its easy for some ppl of other faith judging Christians. But tell you it isn't easy being a Christian. We have struggles too more so when you are closer to God. If you noticed, alot of people always have this judgemental way of approaching Christian. It aint' an easy journey esp this Spiritual journey. But without hope, is one's life worth living.
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